forgiveness
back at this writing thing. it's been unusually hard to actually find a no-fuss blogging platform. wordpress has taken a nosedive in terms of its product offerings, to the point that it is unappealing for me to even want to stay on the platform. so here i am, back on blogspot. it's almost nostalgic to be back here as i am reminded of mini-me. i think i created my first blog when i was 13, and now almost two decades later i am back on this platform because nothing else seems to have the same simplicity. all i want to do is to write, not dabble with having a picturesque layout. it's taken me a long time for me to get back to this place - writing, i mean. for the past few years i have had lots of trouble holding thoughts down and seeing them through. i felt mute, unsure of my inner voice. i have felt less certain of myself, and have felt more urges to just disappear into the background. i think this is how traumatic events gnaw at you - insidiously chipping away at your soul b